One Day

December 5th, 2012   •   1 comment   

Sunrise and sunset are good for me. I need them. They’re also hard for me. They make me uncomfortable.

Sunrise and sunset remind me of the earth spinning completely around in this 24 hour period of one day.  It’s the only time of day when you can actually see the earth rotating, time passing.

It jolts me into reality. The days in my life are limited. It’s sobering.

It’s easier to stay busy, keep the adrenaline pumping, and pretend the days in my life have an endless supply. It’s intoxicating.

The reality of it is tension. As time passes, my life passes, and the tension seems to be increasing.

It can bum me out. I can ignore it and pretend. I can let it motivate me to live fully.

Ignoring it is what I tend to do. Living fully is what I want to do.

One comment

  1. Rebecca Lovern says:

    I have found that the most important factor in changing my tendency to busy myself is self awareness. Just being still and doing nothing but reflecting on how I choose to spend each day was the first step in changing my behavior. The realization that I need to make time to evaluate my choices. I am 61 years of age and it is never to soon to change. I need to make sure my daily life is not just busy. I have decided that I want to spend most of my time doing things that matter now to those I love. It is the realization that what matters to me is that someday when I am gone from this earth have I made a positive impact on not only my world but my family. What will matter to them when I am gone? This self awareness in my quiet time changed my life. This was my decision as to what matters and while others may not agree with my choice, what is important is that I chose how I live each precious day. I still do self indulgent things but they are nurturing and of value to me. Thanks for the post Kathy.